march 19th 2013

from the moment i found out, i knew something was wrong
you were different from your sisters with no doubt
the doctor kept close tabs on you to make sure you were good
but even this did not stop God's original plan

they said you were nine weeks, but they couldn't find you there
the doctor agreed things were amiss
after a week of taking tests and calling the doctor back and forth,
your time had come before your first breath

i hadn't gotten sick, but my tummy ached with stretching
my body was preparing as your house
i had a funny feeling that you wouldn't be here long
that i would not meet you on earth

i called the doctor up when it started to change
he said i was okay, that it was normal
but it didn't get better, it only got worse
and so i went to find out what was wrong

they told me you were there, fighting for your life
they said it was a strange happening
they didn't find you were you'd be because you weren't there
and that was why things looked abnormal to me

i went the next morning to follow up with doctor
he said he'd never seen this before
the report from the er was very disconcerting
and it seemed that you weren't meant to win this war

one final test to confirm the terrible news
there was no longer any doubt
no more would i ride the emotional roller coaster
i could be at peace knowing you were, too

no longer with us, you never met us, you never took a breath
but still we love you as our child
march 19th, 2013, the day i lost my baby
and forever i will love you the same

goodnight, baby angel...